To be continued...

Okay so I have this paper that I have covered with two huge paragraphs about a dream I had and a question I had. I might not post it next week either though... because most of my thoughts are kept to myself and are only shared with one pair of ears. I'm still thinking about it though, but I might just see a consular. I love how I am perfectly okay with saying that, but don't be surprised if this blog ends up being taken down. I am currently transitioning into a better place right now and I have achieved physically and almost mentally too, which is why I am going to try and find time to see the consular for some advice. I would ask a teacher or a friend, but I really don't like the thought of someone trying to figure me out and I only get that thought when I am seeing those people. I do have a question to ask now though. When you see me in the halls do I look happy? I just wanted to know because I think people show there true feeling when they don't think people are looking. I think I am happy though, but I think a lot when I am walking from class to class so could you look at my expression for me please. Try to see me when the hall isn't crowded and not during lunch this week either because I probably wont be all that peppy to be giving up my lunch to sell tickets for winter ball.

BUY YOUR TICKETS please.

That Perfect Thing

I love it when I can find that perfect thing because it cannot always be found. During this break I found the perfect thriller movies from the United Kingdom where the women were very empowering unlike the movies I usually see where they have the type of girls that fall and wait for someone to pick them up. I now have the perfect shade of nail polish called Lilac Freeze which is very appropriate because it looks like the color that my finger tips get when they get cold and the new shade of lip gloss called Eva I got from Bare Escentuals. I found out that I am perfectly okay when people talk around me in languages that I cannot understand and the perfect blend of fish sauce combined with Vietnamese rice flour things so that it becomes deliciously spicy. Unfortunately I haven't been able to turn into that perfect person though. I have failed to be there for some people when I should have been. I have always known that people cannot be perfect so I am satisfied that I can at least surround myself with simple, yet perfect things.

Fortune Cookies

So this all started during the Coach Ball's fourth period P.E class after we had just ran the mile. In this class most of my peers including myself are very lazy so you can imagine how unprepared we were. I had tis brilliant plan before the day had even come about how I was going to go about this very plan( the plan failed by the way). Shay had to decided to join in on this plan and toward the end I left her behind( I'm sorry). We were prepared however for what we were going to do after we ran the mile which was something that I am not a liberty to specify at this moment... anyway I wanted to be able to let her know that she had to just keep running or some other form of motivation like that. Ever since then I have been texting her random things to motivate anything that she might be doing or facing at the moment like the wind for example. Today I sent one about plans and how you should make to many because we both have been. In response she suggested the idea of making my own fortune cookies hence the tittle of this ongoing blog that I am beginning to notice has no purpose. I guess I am done now with my little rant of thoughts that was just brought to the forefront of my brain, but now the are retreating back into that little closet so for now good bye and I sincerely hope that everyone as a great New Year's Eve.

Myspace Bulletins

They are used to post random little things that can be seen in your head and sometimes they are used to express things that are seen through your eyes or heard through your ears. These things can lead you to a place of bad grammar and run on sentences like mine do most of the time, but between the gibberish there are a few good points like the one I just posted a few minutes ago because the my boredom and thought was consuming me and this the only thing I could think of doing to prolong my trip to the kitchen where I would have the honor of putting up a big load of dishes.
Note: I am sorry for the bad grammar, "I" and lame smiles. This is not at all a representation on how people should write in informal situations. I am not currently trying to change my ways on this public website. My good writing skills are only shown in class and on these blog uncapitalized s. Once again I do apologize for this shameful post below.

"the plans often​ go awry,​ but i am very optim​istic​ that mine will stay stron​g unlike the that feeble Londo​n bridge

^o^ i think​ i have the secon​d most amoun​t of fun when i am bored​ but my #1 choic​e is when i am with my frien​ds and some good knee-​slapp​ing fun

be prepa​red.​.​.​

i dont know what that was for but yep.​.​.​

i love those​ littl​e dots(​.​.​.​)​

okay i'm done

i never​ reall​y notic​ed how much i can rambl​e on the inter​net until​ right​ this secon​d.​ okay well that is a lie i knew i did, but i am notic​ing that it is like you are talki​ng to yours​elf in a way unles​s someo​ne respo​nds.​ Hmmm that shoul​d give you somet​hing to think​ about​ for about​ 5 secon​ds.​ Enjoy​ that time of thoug​ht and thank​ me in your me when you'​re done okay.​ And just so you know you are welco​me.​

wooah​ i just reach​ed scrol​e bar lever​ ^o^ now i am reall​y done i feel so lame in the best way possi​ble.​ i have an incur​able disea​se you shoul​d liste​n to We are Stran​ge by The Doors​.​ I'm not that sure on the title​ but it has the word stran​ge in and it has good lyric​s so yeah that was just my two cents​ on the matte​r.​ Choa!​"

As you can see bulletins have both a good and bad side to them. The good side is that you get to show people just how weird you are and the bad side is that those innocent people that are just as strange have to see it.

Snakes vs. Rats

Some of you might remember this from an old season of Survivor where one of the players simply divided the games between the snakes and the rats. In the end the nice mice normally when and not the ugly rats of the brute snakes. This season there have been two mice and many rats. There has never been a case that I can remember where a rat one. The skill is having strategy without being super cut throat because in the end the people you probably had a hand in getting out are going to voting for you to receive the 1 million dollars in the end. Being mean might get you ahead in the game a little but it never gets you to the end happily if at all. Survivor really is a great show and it is one of those shows that get better every year unlike those other shows that grow old and eventually die in the eyes of their viewers. I don't even mind how they type cast the show in a way so there will be drama but over the top drama. Even though the "cookie" incident can be seen as over the top there is no way that it was the producers that were behind it. I must applaud Bob for making two legit looking hidden immunity ideals that two people fell for. It was beautiful. If I could eat fish(their main food source) I would on that show doing as much as I could to become the nice mouse that goes home with the taxed check of a little less than 1 million dollars.

If you watch this show: were you happy that whoever won won(sorry that was terrible grammar)?

BBCA Documentaries

I am in love with these because they always do them on very interesting topics that give you a view of other peoples lives that you hear about but never get too see. As I am typing this now I am watching one that is called "My Big Breast and Me." Obviously you might have and idea on what this is about, but it has shown me that most women with extremely large breast usually don't like them. With reasons of course like the problem of finding the bra(i learned that straps do not give you all of the support; it is the back part being even with the front that does), back problems, self image, and other things that effect the attractiveness of their forever noticeable chest. Another one was about loosing your virginity in the earlier decades for most the teenagers in those days it was a taboo badge of honor for most. Besides that one my favorite focused on cannibals(marijuana) cafes in Holland. The person in the documentary smoked marijuana for a certain length of time to see the effects. It was interesting to see the comparison of someone doing something while high and that same person doing it when they are not. There is a very noticeable difference. I also learned that more people smoke marijuana in the United States than they do in Holland which makes sense because people are always wanting what they cannot have.

Whenever you have nothing to do you should check out BBCA and watch some of there documentaries.

Personals & Code Words

Personals it what we call those life savors that we hide in our purses. You might know what I am talking about if you are a girl and that is good enough because that is who I am directing this at. I hate seeing commercials about T.O.M(Katrina's word) as a roller coaster ride and I really would rather not see the absorbency or flexibility of my stuff. And then asking to go and take car of things is embarrassing too. The decided term for Mr. Thompson's class is "we are going bananas." I personally like using the space analogy or the dessert one which unfortunately freaks out my little dinosaur(Christine), but I made that one up in the sixth grade with my friends in a lunch line of all places. This was just a random blog thank you for reading my rambles if you really did.